Hello all!
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For certain, my life absolutely changed on January 29, 2021. I went in for a colonoscopy and hemorrhoidectomy , when I awoke, the surgeon delivered the news….. A mass, about the size of a large egg had decided to take up residence in my anal canal. He biopsied the tumor , of course, but could tell from all his years and expertise that it was cancer. CANCER?! The nastiest word in the English language as far as I am concerned.
I was in complete shock! I don’t really even remember my wheelchair ride to the car. My husband picked me up in front of the hospital, got us situated in the car, and embraced me like never before. We cried together and I held him as tight as I could! Nick and I were just recently married, 7-28-2020. We had both gone through divorces and found each other, again! We had dated over 30 years ago in High School. To have been fortunate enough to find love again was beautiful, to think for even one second that our love story could be stopped in its tracks because of this ugly disease, was absolutely surreal.
You see, the initial words were spoken, ” You have cancer” , and then they send you home!!! That’s right , send you home. This was by far one of the hardest moments of this experience, no further info on what kind of cancer or what stage is the tumor? The places one’s brain can go with info like that is pretty dark! Nick and I and our families helped get us through those 5 days until the barrage of appointments started , and we started to get some answers.
As I reflected on what was happening, the range of emotions were all present and accounted for, sadness, anger, fear, surprise and anxiety…. and I wanted to know how this happened? Of all places to get cancer, I get it in my ass?!? Are you kidding me right now?!?